For some reason, in my house....the master bedroom has the smallest closet in the house. Cra....zy. I'm not one of those people that store all my winter things during the summer, and vice versa in the winter. I like all my "stuff" in the same place. Especially living in Arkansas.....We go from Uggs to flip flops in 2.5 seconds.
Sydney and I can now share most things. So that said.....I can never find a thing I'm looking for. Drives me bananas. So yesterday....I started organizing. From the top to the bottom....I was determined to find everything and get this mess straightened out. Windows open....KLove on the radio. Here we go.......
I guess you can tell ALOT about a person by what you find "in their closet". I certainly didn't realize what an emotional ride it was going to take me on.....
I started out aggrivated.....Folks, I had a mess. Was forced to start at the bottom so I could even get in the door. Pulled everything out....Boots on one side.....flats on the other.....pumps......flip flops.....sandals.....you get the idea. Brought in a large tub with the intent of getting rid of some things.
Started pulling out sweaters.....lack of space is forcing me to separate my "stuff".....and hoodies....and jackets.....etc. Soon my bed was a mile high with all my stacks.
As I began my journey.....I found it hard to part with so many things. And soon I was up and down with emotion.
* Ran across my momma's jewelry box. Yellowed with age. Nothing in it of monitary value. (my dad's 2nd wife made sure of that....note anger here.) But so many things she had kept. I peeked in and saw a couple of costume things....a newpaper article of when I was in the Miss Arkansas pageant and another of when I announced my engagement......also a picture of my little brother when he got his black belt in Taekwondo. A cigar that says "Its a boy" from when my little brother was born.....just things. I didn't dwell too long....or I wouldn't have gotten anything done. I miss her so very much.
* Next....as I was pulling things out....I saw things with tags on it. SCORE!!!! New outfit for free! Ladies....you know that feeling. :) Then I checked the tag. Small. Yea right!!! I'm sure many of you know THAT feeling as well. I went from happy to ticked faster than the speed of light. Gotta get the weight off....Gotta get the weight off....Gotta get the weight off......I'll start Monday.
* That feeling held on a while as I was finding all my pretty spring tops and dresses from last year. Pre-surgery.....Pre "Put on 20 lbs"......sigh. Yep. Gonna start Monday. One of these days, after I get this weight off....I may pull out my boobs....:) Yes....literally. For they are now located in a box in the top left corner on the top shelf. I love these clothes.
* Kept on pressing on and found all my "Cubs Blue" hoodies, tshirts and such. (Sam's USSSA tournament team he played on for years) What memories. I sat and played over in my mind a few memories of all the wonderful times from our "cubs days". Some of the best friendships.....kids and parents.....that have and will stand the test of time. Even though now.....Cubs blue becomes "Bryant blue" hence, I will never have it on my body....hehehe (To my Bryant friends....I love ya...BUT!) Just couldn't part with it.
* I now come across all the "Panther" stuff. I now have a whole drawer dedicated to that. From baseball, basketball, football, dance.....I have a complete wardrobe. I am however....the biggest fan to a couple of special kiddos. Memories memories.
* My fire safe.....that holds absolutley nothing except a few important papers, my mother's journal, and all of my prescription meds. I look at it and giggle to myself that I have a safe but not much of monitary value to put IN the safe. Then I kinda go back to aggrivated that we live in a world where sick people have to lock up their meds. Grrrrrr.......
* My underwear drawer. Yep....getting personal here. 14 bras. Perfectly good Victoria Secret/Jockey bras. I looked at that empty tub. Nope. Can't do it. Just folded them neatly and placed right back in the drawer. Not ready for that just yet. or ever.....
* I then found my "hat basket"....So many....86 to be exact....that I had to get a "bigger" basket. I touched each and every one. Most were gifts. I don't have to tell you how special they are to me. They take me to the roughest battle I've ever faced. Only had a wig on my head a time or two....I was a hat girl. Brings to mind those close to me who are in the midst of their fight.....Hallie, Mr. David, Amy C.'s mom, Amy B. and so many others that are where I have been. I stopped right then.....with my dogs barking at my window to come in.....the mower next door going.....the chainsaw noise across the street.....and my two wonderful kiddos arguing in the next room.....and prayed for each by name. I then felt peace because I know that God is going to bring them to this place. The place I am now. Tuesday of this week will have been a year since my diagnosis. Boy what can happen in a year. For the record.....I plan to wear some hats this week. I think they are a "crutch" of sorts. Not ONE of them are going into the tub......which is still empty at this point! lol
* Next.....I came across my bridesmaid dress for Gina's wedding. I am hosting her shower at my house next weekend which first prompted the spring cleaning idea. (My peeps are Oh so thrilled....) I am so happy that she found love and said a little prayer for them. Also threw a prayer up there that I can somehow look decent in this dress beside my beautiful friends. I'm a sight right now. Picture a twelve year old with bleach blonde spikey hair with a hind end as big as Texas. That's me! Again....Monday....diet day. Also....sent a text to hairdresser. Gotta tone down the hair.
* Tshirts. Lordy. I should just chunk them all! right???? wrong. I came across 13 "something for the cure" shirts that others have sent to me where they have "walked, ran, pledged, donated, done "something" in my honor. Awesome. They are now folded neatly on my shelf. Along with many other BC awareness shirts. On top is my personal favorite....."Team Terri" shirt from the Race for the cure. Another memory that I will never forget. Over 100 members joined me in walking for their hero. And our team walked among thousands.
* I found my 20 year reunion Tshirt from the "Class of 89" at Newport High. Made me miss my Sandy and all my Newport buds. Then I sat for a second remembering Newport. How so many reached out to me over the past year. And how I can't wait to attend our 25....our 30......Yep. Diet starts Monday! hehehe
* I came across my "cruise clothes" from spring break last year. The best family vacation ever! With the best of old friends.....and the making of new ones. Was diagnosed a week later. I think the Lord provided that week....because he KNEW what fight I was about to start. Memories. Memories!
* On the front are my "fat clothes".....Thank GOD for pikos. They are "boxy" and hide everything! This little section will get me through. Soon THESE clothes will be too big. :)
I ended this "closet extravaganza" which lasted about 4 hours......exhausted. Alot of memories in that little space. I also ended it with an empty tub. lol That will have to be for another day. It is neat as a pin....and got dressed for church this morning in record time. As I look at each little shelf.....up and down....to the right and left.....I smiled to myself. Because that space is all mine. To others...its just an ordinary closet with "stuff". To me? It's much more. Thank you God! :)
Luke 2:19: "But Mary treasured up all these things,
pondering them in her heart."
In Him,
Terri
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