You will find that alot of my blogs will include music. Praise music touches me almost as much as anything. Its amazing to me how God uses these artists to touch me so many times throughout my day with a song that is fitting for that moment in time. Its such a big part of my worship....and such a big part of my "closeness" to Jesus that a blog without it wouldn't be "me"! The kids and I just shout the words ......as IF we could carry a tune in a bucket! hahaha But the bible doesn't say "Sing beautifully".....it says, "Make a joyful noise!"....right?? :)) That...my friends we do!!!
Please do NOT keep reading until you watch this video in its entirety and listen to the lyrics.....:))
(Feel free to sing along.....this is a favorite of ours in the car!....Even if others are listening! hehe)
"Voice Of Truth"
Oh what I would do to have
The kind of faith it takes to climb out of this boat I'm in
Onto the crashing waves
To step out of my comfort zone
To the realm of the unknown where Jesus is
And He's holding out his hand
But the waves are calling out my name and they laugh at me
Reminding me of all the times I've tried before and failed
The waves they keep on telling me
Time and time again. 'Boy, you'll never win!'
"You'll never win"
But the voice of truth tells me a different story
And the voice of truth says "Do not be afraid!"
And the voice of truth says "This is for My glory"
Out of all the voices calling out to me
I will choose to listen and believe the voice of truth
Oh what I would do to have
The kind of strength it takes to stand before a giant
With just a Sling and a stone
Surrounded by the sound of a thousand warriors
Shaking in their armor
Wishing they'd have had the strength to stand
But the giant's calling out my name and he laughs at me
Reminding me of all the times I've tried before and failed
The giant keeps on telling me
Time and time again "boy, you'll never win!
"You'll never win"
But the stone was just the right size
To put the giant on the ground
And the waves they don't seem so high
From on top of them looking down
I will soar with the wings of eagles
When I stop and listen to the sound of Jesus
Singing over me
I will choose to listen and believe the voice of truth......
I guess we all have our "waves" crashing against us. In the form of conflict, past mistakes, sometimes silliness and nonsense that mean little in the grand scheme of things. We all have our "giants".....those things standing in between us and God. Some giants are necessary (money, career, busy lives, etc.), some are out of our control (illness, loss of loved ones, etc.). Satan works awfully hard to strategically place conflict so that we turn to things other than our Lord.
Boy how true the lyrics are.....The voice of truth....tells us a different story. The voice of truth....says "DO NOT BE AFRAID!" I saw a little saying somewhere yesterday that said...."Do not fear tomorrow....God is already there.". Well friends....Im struggling today. I fear nearly EVERYTHING about tomorrow. But as my sweet Shane told me today, faith and fear cannot occupy the same space. Her words hit me right between the eyes.....Like I said in the beginning, this cancer doesn't know MY God! :)
I know that my choice to be aggressive is absolutely the right one. Of course, Im a little nervous about the procedure, the upcoming "pain" and body changes that are to follow. In many ways, I'm feeling that I'm being robbed of my womanhood. That has a sting. And here we are at the "unknown" again. They will be testing the lymph nodes for possible spreading. Within those results lie alot of answers regarding my future treatment. Unanswered questions and the waiting....not good on this ole "control freak"! :) I've just been a basket case.....
When I thought I would go over the edge, I received such beautiful flowers, the sweetest card ever and a visit from my sweet friend, Dione. Her words were a comfort. She let me cry...and cried with me. God places people in just the right places at just the perfect time. A simply precious lady. I truly believe in His perfect placement of the friends I have in our lives!
Wasn't the last time I would cry today. Sweet Deb and my precious Ash suprised me at the office a little later with a bag of goodies.....Comfy "jammies"......and of course hugs and encouragement. Got home to find a sack on my door with MORE comfy PJs from sweet Karen.....My dear friend, Robert beautiful flowers, and a special card. My sweet friend, Michele, brought us a delicious supper. Was a hit for sure! I just kept getting subtle reminders of all the angels God has placed around me. Funny I don't feel like I am adequately thanking those around me.
The ways friends and strangers alike have come to our aid.....and eased burdens for me. Those who just sneak in and out and I never even know "who" to thank. Even other "single moms" who have stepped up to help possibly causing stress on them to do so. People taking time to cook for us....help me with rides for the kids. The list is endless of those who love us and would never dream of keeping score.....As sweet Jon said tonight.....I'll be "armed for Team Terri"! Wow, I feel like with THIS team....this ole giant better watch out! :)
Again...."Every good gift and every perfect gift is from above. James 1:17 God is movin in my life!!! I've added to my prayers that I am gracious ENOUGH to those who are doing so much. I so feel like I've fallen short.
Then tonight....my little crew.....David, Sonya, Gina and Shane and my new friend Degan, took me to dinner.....and dawned pink shirts that said "Real Women don't NEED 2nd base! After some contraversy getting them made of what "base" I'm having removed.....hehe.....we shared some hugs and laughs.
The kind of faith it takes to climb out of this boat I'm in
Onto the crashing waves
To step out of my comfort zone
To the realm of the unknown where Jesus is
And He's holding out his hand
But the waves are calling out my name and they laugh at me
Reminding me of all the times I've tried before and failed
The waves they keep on telling me
Time and time again. 'Boy, you'll never win!'
"You'll never win"
But the voice of truth tells me a different story
And the voice of truth says "Do not be afraid!"
And the voice of truth says "This is for My glory"
Out of all the voices calling out to me
I will choose to listen and believe the voice of truth
Oh what I would do to have
The kind of strength it takes to stand before a giant
With just a Sling and a stone
Surrounded by the sound of a thousand warriors
Shaking in their armor
Wishing they'd have had the strength to stand
But the giant's calling out my name and he laughs at me
Reminding me of all the times I've tried before and failed
The giant keeps on telling me
Time and time again "boy, you'll never win!
"You'll never win"
But the stone was just the right size
To put the giant on the ground
And the waves they don't seem so high
From on top of them looking down
I will soar with the wings of eagles
When I stop and listen to the sound of Jesus
Singing over me
I will choose to listen and believe the voice of truth......
I guess we all have our "waves" crashing against us. In the form of conflict, past mistakes, sometimes silliness and nonsense that mean little in the grand scheme of things. We all have our "giants".....those things standing in between us and God. Some giants are necessary (money, career, busy lives, etc.), some are out of our control (illness, loss of loved ones, etc.). Satan works awfully hard to strategically place conflict so that we turn to things other than our Lord.
Boy how true the lyrics are.....The voice of truth....tells us a different story. The voice of truth....says "DO NOT BE AFRAID!" I saw a little saying somewhere yesterday that said...."Do not fear tomorrow....God is already there.". Well friends....Im struggling today. I fear nearly EVERYTHING about tomorrow. But as my sweet Shane told me today, faith and fear cannot occupy the same space. Her words hit me right between the eyes.....Like I said in the beginning, this cancer doesn't know MY God! :)
I know that my choice to be aggressive is absolutely the right one. Of course, Im a little nervous about the procedure, the upcoming "pain" and body changes that are to follow. In many ways, I'm feeling that I'm being robbed of my womanhood. That has a sting. And here we are at the "unknown" again. They will be testing the lymph nodes for possible spreading. Within those results lie alot of answers regarding my future treatment. Unanswered questions and the waiting....not good on this ole "control freak"! :) I've just been a basket case.....
When I thought I would go over the edge, I received such beautiful flowers, the sweetest card ever and a visit from my sweet friend, Dione. Her words were a comfort. She let me cry...and cried with me. God places people in just the right places at just the perfect time. A simply precious lady. I truly believe in His perfect placement of the friends I have in our lives!
Wasn't the last time I would cry today. Sweet Deb and my precious Ash suprised me at the office a little later with a bag of goodies.....Comfy "jammies"......and of course hugs and encouragement. Got home to find a sack on my door with MORE comfy PJs from sweet Karen.....My dear friend, Robert beautiful flowers, and a special card. My sweet friend, Michele, brought us a delicious supper. Was a hit for sure! I just kept getting subtle reminders of all the angels God has placed around me. Funny I don't feel like I am adequately thanking those around me.
The ways friends and strangers alike have come to our aid.....and eased burdens for me. Those who just sneak in and out and I never even know "who" to thank. Even other "single moms" who have stepped up to help possibly causing stress on them to do so. People taking time to cook for us....help me with rides for the kids. The list is endless of those who love us and would never dream of keeping score.....As sweet Jon said tonight.....I'll be "armed for Team Terri"! Wow, I feel like with THIS team....this ole giant better watch out! :)
Again...."Every good gift and every perfect gift is from above. James 1:17 God is movin in my life!!! I've added to my prayers that I am gracious ENOUGH to those who are doing so much. I so feel like I've fallen short.
Then tonight....my little crew.....David, Sonya, Gina and Shane and my new friend Degan, took me to dinner.....and dawned pink shirts that said "Real Women don't NEED 2nd base! After some contraversy getting them made of what "base" I'm having removed.....hehe.....we shared some hugs and laughs.
I've had some up and down moments today. But one thing has remained true. My "Voices" of truth. Some in the form of phone calls, some in the form of texts. I will have an entourage of people around me tomorrow with family and friends coming to be with me. And I know and feel the thoughts and prayers of many others. A simple "I love you sis" came from my brother just moments ago. And a chat with my Becca Boo.
Cancer is like looking down the barrel of a gun. But you are not sure if that gun is loaded. Or if the "safety" is on. Its scary. And for lack of better words....Cancer just sucks. But I do know this.....when you face something that could take your life head on.....you realize what "life" is all about. Its about love. Its about forgiveness. Its about kindness. Its about always lifting others up. Its about realizing we are human.....and as humans we are not perfect. Its about our children. And always putting them before ourselves.
Its about living in His image. Not about pettiness, jealousy, revenge, or drama. The Voice of Truth tells me a different story.......We don't know how many earthly days we have here on this earth. We must remember that love is patient....and most of all kind. Cherish your friendships. Say "I love you" and say it too often. The voice of truth says "Do not be afraid"......
Before heading for some snuggle time with my kiddos....Here are details for tomorrow:
I check into Baptist at 1:00. Surgery at 3:00. Dr. James Hagans is my surgeon....please pray for his hands and my healing.
I am expected to be in surgery about 2 hours. And then recovery for about an hour. I will then be admitted to the Women's floor for a couple of days.
The kids' dad will be picking them up from school and bringing them to the hospital.
I once said that I am so blessed to have family who are friends and friends who are family. How blessed we are.
I will choose to listen and believe the voice of truth.
In Him,
Terri
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